“Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened.” Dr. Seus

This a blog I have needed to write for a couple months now, but I haven’t been able to find the words. Just Crumbs has been my baby for the last 5 years and we have worked so hard to be where we are at today. It has been such an amazing journey, but this last year has been one of the hardest. Balancing being a new mom and business owner has been extremely challenging.  I imagined being a “Boss Mom” with that messy bun ready to kick butt and take names, but the reality is I can’t do it ( or at least can’t do it alone). Honestly I was embarrassed, embarrassed that I failed.  Can I get any more dramatic ??  Well honestly, it’s how I felt.

 

I have cried many many tears over this decision , and kept going back and forth. However it is time for us to take an undetermined “sabbatical” from wedding cakes. I never thought this would be as hard as it has to say those words, but it is for the best. I found myself not being able to give 100% to my clients and that is not fair to them. This is the best day of your life and you want your vendors to be just as passionate and even though I LOVE weddings . I felt that passion slipping and at that point I knew we needed a break.   This business has taught me so much and brought us so many amazing relationships that I hold dear to my heart.

 

The truth is I miss my family and I miss the quality time with them. When we have a wedding or two or even 3 , we miss out on a lot of things.   I caught myself getting upset with Gage and say “I’m too busy” and that broke my heart into a million pieces. We worked so hard to get that boy and now I’m too busy for you?!? I hated the mom I was turning into, and I wanted to be there like actually there for my son. I want to take him places and not worry that I didn’t send out that e-mail or that get that quote out. I want to go on a weekend trip as a family when we need to get out and not have to plan it a year in advance. Or say hey this weekend is going to be nice lets go to the lake?

 

This year I also want to focus on myself. This year I am really going to work on my health , and get back into shape. I have also signed up for Make a Wish Trailblaze Challenge and will be hiking 26.3 miles. I’ve been wanting to give back and this seemed like a no brainer. I will later being doing a blog on the Challenge and how you can help and where to donate.  I also want to be a better wife.  I have been lucky to have my husband by my side with every wedding, but it’s still work and he needs a break .

 

So does this mean I’m going to be a full time stay at home mom? Haha no , I am actually going back to my old job as a design assistant at our family granite and marble business.

I don’t know how long I will be away from weddings. We are still doing our monthly cake classes and I will try to get better at adding those to our website. If you would have told me 2 years ago this is the direction I would be going I would laugh and have said now way I got this! However I’m ok with admitting I can’t do it all . My dad actually gave me the best advice. He came to the old studio to help me set up tables and we had our talk about what I should do and he told me “ don’t look at it like you are throwing it in the trash, because you aren’t this is something you built from the ground up. Think of it as a trophy you are putting on a shelf and now your are going for another.”   Those words really started to sink in and I knew it was time. I have been so honored to be apart of this amazing industry in Huntsville, and have been trusted by so many brides.   This business has taught me so much and brought us so many amazing relationships that I hold dear to my heart.   Thank you for the love and support over the years I have meant the world to me.